A new beginning.

How does a person learn to start all over? I'm not really sure I know the answer... what I do know, is that at times, its unbearable. Sometimes in life, you lose the things that are closest to your heart. Perhaps in the long run its better, but the pain still lingers and knowing how to move on, and start all over is a difficult thing. Seems impossible almost. But then again, maybe thats because the human heart has a hard time letting go...

Anyways, the person who brought me to FFXI and taught me everything I know, has left the game. Because he was the shell holder of TheBrotherhood, we would no longer have anyone to promote future sack holders for the LS... So I went ahead and created a new home.

I spent maybe two days trying to come up with a name, but it was hard to move away from the name that I had known all my FFXI life. TheBrotherhood has had its moments where people have tried very hard to bash the members, more specifically the leaders I guess. But regardless, I will always feel that our LS represented something that wasn't very common to find in the game... a place where good people could come together and help each other enjoy the game. We've always encouraged each other to ask for help, but never to assume that a favor would need to be repaid. Instead, we wanted our members to just help because knowing that you might have made someone else smile and accomplish something they couldn't have done alone, is far more rewarding.

So, after thinking about the kind of members we had... and how many of them had often referred to each other as family, and remembering the times when some members would have your back no matter what... it made me think of my favorite animal, the wolf.

A wolf is a type of animal that lives in packs, and they spend their lifetime with each other. They kind of represent "family" in the animal kingdom, and defend their members against other predators. They're fiercely loyal and protective of their kind, and i've seen these qualities in the members of TheBrotherhood. The members don't hesitate to offer their help to others, and many actually go out of their way to see to it that everyone in the LS is progressing in the game and having fun. We all have our nights where we goof around and joke, and we also have our moments where we confide in each other about things going on in the game, and even in real life. We don't look at each other as "polygonal 3d characters", but rather for the people we know that are behind the screen. We're real people, and we're there for each other.

So taking all that in mind, I called the new LS "SpiritOfTheWolf".

Many of the members are pleased with the name, which i'm really happy about. I was paranoid they might think it sounded lame, but so far I haven't heard anything but positive comments.

And so, now I start the game again alone. Its different, and I guess this is how the rest of the players experience the game. It gets a lot more boring when you're not always with someone to do things with. I can always ask SoTW members to do something with me in game, but its not quite the same... but I guess its just something i'll need to learn to do. Both in game and in real life.

You can never know what to expect, no matter how much you try to plan things out. Life will throw stuff at you, but you gotta hang tough and get through it.

Kinda a corny post this time around, but meh. Hopefully by the next time i'm ready to post i'll have some good updates to make. Been trying to keep myself super busy lately (but i'm definitely not keeping up with the screenshots -_-)